just had another tiring day fr skool. we r now 2 weeks into the semester, already i hav got more than a handful of work awaiting my attention. but as usual, the show must go on, therefore i must move on too. yet all is good, actually better than i had expected. only just now, i was appointed as one of the two reps. to prepare for the next overseas program. looking forward to another exciting adventure... cant say much now but from where i am now, i m looking westward for a solution. lets hope everything can turn out as i planned.
really glad that i m now in tokyo, able to learn from such a diverse community. its had to say which is a better skool, APU or Waseda, but here in tokyo i do get to participate in projects. & at last i m beginning to find out my true value, or to say i can now attach a price tag on myself. still there is much to do and the going is still tough, one must face the stereotype of being a junior member and learn one's position within the hierarchy. the former i can anticipate; the latter i m still grappling with even to this day.
the first meeting after my election is scheduled on friday late noon, until then i shall need to polish my presentation, my tool to seal the deal :]
till then,
cheers,
Wednesday, April 19, 2006
to my sister
hey,
wuts wrong wif the telephone line at home? cant seem to get through... might want telekom to thoroughly check the connection.
cheers,
wuts wrong wif the telephone line at home? cant seem to get through... might want telekom to thoroughly check the connection.
cheers,
Sunday, April 16, 2006
Tuesday, April 04, 2006
Dr M. receives PhD @ Waseda.
his speech like always was both amusing & thought provoking at the same time :] proud to be a Malaysian... if only we could hav more leaders like him :p
long long day
spent the whole day outside... went to skool, had lunch with friends, went for a walk along the magnificent Kanda river where sakura petals painted the river pink, turned in my next application for financial assistance, & finally went to see my ol'man for new advice for my next project.
all in all, it was a busy day. yet for some reason, there is sth amiss amongst the long list... for i wasnt satisfied by this achievement. every moment i d remind myself that all is still at stake, no room for that *common ground* as its a winner take all game.
yet i fear this intense way of living might not be enough to carry me to my goals. to realize them require much more... much more than i now possess. if only God can hear this loud cry....
all in all, it was a busy day. yet for some reason, there is sth amiss amongst the long list... for i wasnt satisfied by this achievement. every moment i d remind myself that all is still at stake, no room for that *common ground* as its a winner take all game.
yet i fear this intense way of living might not be enough to carry me to my goals. to realize them require much more... much more than i now possess. if only God can hear this loud cry....
sth i forgot to upload... a memorable moment with mayor ma
never thought i b able to see him in person :]
Sunday, April 02, 2006
Saturday, April 01, 2006
the ugly me.
dear all,
as usual, lots happened in the last fews months. since my last message, i helped publised an article on a japanese academic journal, finished my first semester at waseda's GSAPS with pretty good result, went to shanghai & beijing--internship@tv station, help produced an episode of a japanese tv program, visited ancient China @ beijing, met most of the family of my significant other, translated heaps of stuff including medical prodecure docs, had lots of fun & etc etc ;p--, & finally granted a scholarship (still havent got my $$ yet tho.). still lots to be done. as the chinese communist saying goes, "revolution isn't done yet, let's charge ahead my comrades!" such a saying best reflects my current state of mind.
today i also saw an undesirable side of my conscience. it was as if i saw in flesh and blood the shadow of an older self--me, one i thought i had long got ridden yet had unknowingly lingered on, reincarnate and manifests itself in the most unlikely way. but what man can do to rid his stereotype--unhealthy biases? the very nature of our conscience are made up of sets of biases, all working simultaneously to induce the mind into a particular thought. such tendency i have found to be very severe in me, & had not realized such until i saw this clone of an ugly, older version of me. i dare not claim to have finally realized and patched this imperfection, yet at least i see better now the flaw of my design. with sweating palms & a fainting heart, i am ashamed of myself.
none to cheer about,
faulty nic
as usual, lots happened in the last fews months. since my last message, i helped publised an article on a japanese academic journal, finished my first semester at waseda's GSAPS with pretty good result, went to shanghai & beijing--internship@tv station, help produced an episode of a japanese tv program, visited ancient China @ beijing, met most of the family of my significant other, translated heaps of stuff including medical prodecure docs, had lots of fun & etc etc ;p--, & finally granted a scholarship (still havent got my $$ yet tho.). still lots to be done. as the chinese communist saying goes, "revolution isn't done yet, let's charge ahead my comrades!" such a saying best reflects my current state of mind.
today i also saw an undesirable side of my conscience. it was as if i saw in flesh and blood the shadow of an older self--me, one i thought i had long got ridden yet had unknowingly lingered on, reincarnate and manifests itself in the most unlikely way. but what man can do to rid his stereotype--unhealthy biases? the very nature of our conscience are made up of sets of biases, all working simultaneously to induce the mind into a particular thought. such tendency i have found to be very severe in me, & had not realized such until i saw this clone of an ugly, older version of me. i dare not claim to have finally realized and patched this imperfection, yet at least i see better now the flaw of my design. with sweating palms & a fainting heart, i am ashamed of myself.
none to cheer about,
faulty nic
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