my frantic heart pounding,
the desperate need to convey to the face,
the burning throat, the aching throat, the
swelled throat didnt help the matter.
watered to the brimmed, i turned them
to look at the face as speech failed me.
alas he understood
with my notion he brought writing tools.
*couldnt speak, no sound* coarsely
written in their language,
to which he replied
*i understand, but this is work
& we must all adhere to the work ethic*
little did he know that
the wages for the last few days
would be delivered to the hospital,
pharmacy that provided my treatment.
was the work ethic worth more than the employees?
coming to that, where do i stand as a part timer?
but that was soon answered
as he again spoke, *take tomorrow off,
i shall call u tomorrow for the shift the day after*
& that plastic japanese grin i m all so familiar with.
with that i sped off to retrieve my ride home.
all the way, feeling used & raped
off my last thread of pride as i replayed that scene,
so desperate to appeal my case but couldnt,
so crystal clear of my practical worth,
& a growing detest for this establishment
with all the being in it.
but all this is bygone
i hope.
&
i shall not return.
so farewell Beppu Wan Royal Hotel,
goodbye. &
may we never have to cross paths ever again.
Monday, August 15, 2005
down & out... & raped good
dear all,
life is a bed of roses, they have thorns... never fully understood this saying till last few days, when i was forced to work nite shifts despite my ailing body.
all me colleagues knew that i was *not feeling well*... gezz how bold can i put it any further (Jap is my 5 or 6 language, so spare me the lecture if u think i should ve done better)... so as it was, i laboured at work wif the most sour face i could contort, the best smile i could put up was barely a smirk.
& this is not the end, because my body had been giving me trouble since the 1st day of august, with a series of headaches, fever, i had been a very grumpy & spiteful person. last nite though my body decided this wasnt enough misery and capped it off with an additional dose of mumps and the OHHH so painful sore throat.
with all these, i brought myself to work, & miraculously lasted 4 hrs till i was completely robbed of speech, literally whatever came forth sounded worse than a bleating goat, robbed of my last thread of pride, for what was i worth more to them than a disposable part timer that *had to* earn that meek 750yen/hr (1 USD=109.6yen) & an undeserving critter who d asked for sick leaves when there's the slightest bodily discomfort.
while i intended to see to end of my shift & then get home for some rest, my body just wouldnt have that kind of talk. so it reacted. the darned sore throat felt so hot that i couldnt speak, as mentioned, when i went to the P in-charge all i could make was uhhhh- uhh-, unintelligible even to a wookie.
in a wify, i left the establishment. im sure i got a few shocked faces seeing me leave like that, but i couldnt care less, all i wanted was to go home. that sole thought kept me going, flying through traffic & evading traps & stops...
till i reach home and tumbled...
life is a bed of roses, they have thorns... never fully understood this saying till last few days, when i was forced to work nite shifts despite my ailing body.
all me colleagues knew that i was *not feeling well*... gezz how bold can i put it any further (Jap is my 5 or 6 language, so spare me the lecture if u think i should ve done better)... so as it was, i laboured at work wif the most sour face i could contort, the best smile i could put up was barely a smirk.
& this is not the end, because my body had been giving me trouble since the 1st day of august, with a series of headaches, fever, i had been a very grumpy & spiteful person. last nite though my body decided this wasnt enough misery and capped it off with an additional dose of mumps and the OHHH so painful sore throat.
with all these, i brought myself to work, & miraculously lasted 4 hrs till i was completely robbed of speech, literally whatever came forth sounded worse than a bleating goat, robbed of my last thread of pride, for what was i worth more to them than a disposable part timer that *had to* earn that meek 750yen/hr (1 USD=109.6yen) & an undeserving critter who d asked for sick leaves when there's the slightest bodily discomfort.
while i intended to see to end of my shift & then get home for some rest, my body just wouldnt have that kind of talk. so it reacted. the darned sore throat felt so hot that i couldnt speak, as mentioned, when i went to the P in-charge all i could make was uhhhh- uhh-, unintelligible even to a wookie.
in a wify, i left the establishment. im sure i got a few shocked faces seeing me leave like that, but i couldnt care less, all i wanted was to go home. that sole thought kept me going, flying through traffic & evading traps & stops...
till i reach home and tumbled...
Tuesday, August 09, 2005
dog tired...
weehh~~
wut a rush. final exam right after the trip to shanghai, then there is the kyoto seminar to worry about, plus there is more than necessary part time job in the already packed schedule.
just got of 2 five-hour-shifts... been awake for more than 20hrs... hell, wish i wasnt hypertension during my rest time or i d have gotten some rest. :[
so here it is... i m getting ready for tokyo. all is fine except that i m debating whether i should attend my own convocation... which will cost more than 1 month's rent just to travel between where i am now & tokyo. mmm.... to be or not to be... i need booze.
speaking about booze... i recently got smashed in a party, so bad that i was rushed into ER. hahahahaha.... too much whiskey + Oita's famous shochu. :] the graduation party was absolutely cr@p!! but we had soooo much booze & smoking going on none of us could leave walking straight. though i must say i enjoyed being smashed hard that nite. guess its a once in a lifetime opportunity to try sth crazy. might as well do it in your own graduation party. hehe~~~
after that, it was part time job all day long, most of the time it runs late into the nite too... wut can i say, cant be begging for more monay fr me folks can i...:p i m on me own now.
but life aint that bad though, waseda seem to offer a good prospect for research and i hope i can go somewhere through waseda :]
enuf of me, why dont u tell me wuts happening lately??
cheers,
wut a rush. final exam right after the trip to shanghai, then there is the kyoto seminar to worry about, plus there is more than necessary part time job in the already packed schedule.
just got of 2 five-hour-shifts... been awake for more than 20hrs... hell, wish i wasnt hypertension during my rest time or i d have gotten some rest. :[
so here it is... i m getting ready for tokyo. all is fine except that i m debating whether i should attend my own convocation... which will cost more than 1 month's rent just to travel between where i am now & tokyo. mmm.... to be or not to be... i need booze.
speaking about booze... i recently got smashed in a party, so bad that i was rushed into ER. hahahahaha.... too much whiskey + Oita's famous shochu. :] the graduation party was absolutely cr@p!! but we had soooo much booze & smoking going on none of us could leave walking straight. though i must say i enjoyed being smashed hard that nite. guess its a once in a lifetime opportunity to try sth crazy. might as well do it in your own graduation party. hehe~~~
after that, it was part time job all day long, most of the time it runs late into the nite too... wut can i say, cant be begging for more monay fr me folks can i...:p i m on me own now.
but life aint that bad though, waseda seem to offer a good prospect for research and i hope i can go somewhere through waseda :]
enuf of me, why dont u tell me wuts happening lately??
cheers,
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