Blake on "the marriage ring":
"If you trap the moment before it's ripe,
the tears of repentance you'll certainly wipe.
But if once you let the ripe moment go,
you can never wipe off the tears of woe."
W.B. again on "the question answered":
"What is it men in women do require?
The lineaments of Gratified Desire.
What is it women in men require?
The lineaments of Gratified Desire."
just something i d found while strolling the shelves of a local bookstore at home. personally i do believe that there is much more between men and women than mere gratified desire... though that would depend of each of us translate Gratified Desire. on another note, i guess i still havent had to wipe the tears of repentance... hope the day never comes.
cheers,
N
Saturday, December 01, 2007
Saturday, November 10, 2007
Selamat pulang ke tanah air
"selamat pulang ke tanah air"...
those were the words of the flight captain as we touched down on the runway of KLIA.
it was a complicated feeling for me hearing those words, for i was filled with excitement i have not felt a long long time. as i boarded a coach for the city centre, taking in the various scenes, busy traffic, road signs in malay, flats labelled "Anggerik, Bawangkali,Cempaka, Dahlia", LRT station Masjit Jamek, everything was so familiar yet so different.
i wonder if such feeling would follow everytime i come back visiting my home town.
visit to Taiping also brought back childhood memories, though gone were the rambutan trees in the courtyard of most houses and the kids that roamed around the area. now its a quiet neighbourhood with elder folks left to take care of their properties.
it had been a short trip back home. but i hope the next one would not be too far a way, especially when i have more than a couple of excuses to return home.
those were the words of the flight captain as we touched down on the runway of KLIA.
it was a complicated feeling for me hearing those words, for i was filled with excitement i have not felt a long long time. as i boarded a coach for the city centre, taking in the various scenes, busy traffic, road signs in malay, flats labelled "Anggerik, Bawangkali,Cempaka, Dahlia", LRT station Masjit Jamek, everything was so familiar yet so different.
i wonder if such feeling would follow everytime i come back visiting my home town.
visit to Taiping also brought back childhood memories, though gone were the rambutan trees in the courtyard of most houses and the kids that roamed around the area. now its a quiet neighbourhood with elder folks left to take care of their properties.
it had been a short trip back home. but i hope the next one would not be too far a way, especially when i have more than a couple of excuses to return home.
Monday, September 24, 2007
Thursday, September 20, 2007
MA convocation
yep.... i did it.
my paper passed with flying result... although just shy of a place on the dean's list according to me old man. even thats a long story anyway...
but i m really glad that its all over & i have sth else to look forward to.
now, just one more *task* & i ve put everything else behind for a whole new experience.
Tuesday, September 11, 2007
what the shanghainese think as most important in a wedding....
i know... its pretty embarrassing to have shot this out in public.
& a little peekabo into what i ve up to lately. have fun laughing ur socks off ^@^
it's all me ~
& a little peekabo into what i ve up to lately. have fun laughing ur socks off ^@^
it's all me ~
Friday, June 22, 2007
looking forward to my emacipation~!!!
will it ever arrive this moment i ve been longing for...
oh well... its going to end in 2 weeks whether i like it or not... lets just hope my work ll turn out alrite.
flying to shanghai in august... anyone interested in visiting shanghai during summer & need a free tour guide, feel free to gimme a call or drop me a line.
tho u should b warned shanghai in summer is worst than anything u can imagine in msia, take all the heat and humidity in KL & multiply that by 100... should be how u d feel if u were to be in shanghai during august. & i dont even want to talk bout when it rains & the aftermath.... all the dirt washed up to the roadside, makes me sick just thinking of it.
if u still can live with all that disaster of the elements, like me, then u ll find that shanghai in the summer offers all the eye candy~*guys guys, take note* one can imagine and perhaps wif a lil luck & guts u could even get some TLC for the trip :p
oh but first i ll hav to toil through June and survive July--my defense for the dissertation. god please gimme strength for all these...
N
oh well... its going to end in 2 weeks whether i like it or not... lets just hope my work ll turn out alrite.
flying to shanghai in august... anyone interested in visiting shanghai during summer & need a free tour guide, feel free to gimme a call or drop me a line.
tho u should b warned shanghai in summer is worst than anything u can imagine in msia, take all the heat and humidity in KL & multiply that by 100... should be how u d feel if u were to be in shanghai during august. & i dont even want to talk bout when it rains & the aftermath.... all the dirt washed up to the roadside, makes me sick just thinking of it.
if u still can live with all that disaster of the elements, like me, then u ll find that shanghai in the summer offers all the eye candy~*guys guys, take note* one can imagine and perhaps wif a lil luck & guts u could even get some TLC for the trip :p
oh but first i ll hav to toil through June and survive July--my defense for the dissertation. god please gimme strength for all these...
N
Monday, May 21, 2007
marriage registration & complications
hmm... it seems like getting married is no easy task.
not just the wedding and various banquets, one has to mind the governments involved.
orgs including the local municipal, malaysian embassy, even the tokyo tax bureau all seem to want a hand in my marriage. luckily the chinese embassy doesnt require as much hassle, perhaps they have other more pressing issues to deal with?!
then there is also various folks who r worried tht their prized daughter would be married off to a farfar southern land..... hmmm how am i to explain that we r ACTUALLY settlin down here in the heart of the enemy, tokyo. ;p
lets hope all goes well for future Mr & Mrs Leong... fingers crossed folks!!
cheers,
not just the wedding and various banquets, one has to mind the governments involved.
orgs including the local municipal, malaysian embassy, even the tokyo tax bureau all seem to want a hand in my marriage. luckily the chinese embassy doesnt require as much hassle, perhaps they have other more pressing issues to deal with?!
then there is also various folks who r worried tht their prized daughter would be married off to a farfar southern land..... hmmm how am i to explain that we r ACTUALLY settlin down here in the heart of the enemy, tokyo. ;p
lets hope all goes well for future Mr & Mrs Leong... fingers crossed folks!!
cheers,
Wednesday, May 09, 2007
me & zero fighter
recently at the yasukuni shrine museum, they ve got a skewed interpretation of contempt. history here, ironically its garden and surrounding is one of the best and most popular spot for watching sakura in tokyo.
my boss, the boss lady and the little boss lady
ladies and gentlemen,
let me introduce you to professor Sonoda Shigeto and his family.
the boss i answer to at waseda, the role model husband and family man.
real japanese beauty
setsuko san... not only is she beautiful, but she is one of the coolest person i have ever met. my new role model esp during crossroads in life. r@spect~!!
my last orientation session with rotary club tokyo
just got back from my last orientation session for the rotary club scholarship recipeints.
not only was i surprised by the presence of a couple of fellow waseda mates, but on my way home from ikebukuro i ran into an old friend from APU... seems like he is back to japan for his research on youth policy, will stay for 1 yr before returning to oxford.
seeing people fr the yesteryears was in a way a tour down memory lane... for during the whole chika tetsu trip back home, i kept recalling the days we spent together at good ol Beppu. crawling uphill in our 50cc scooters at turtle pace, the delicious ethnic food served at the only cafeteria on our hill top campus, basketball games that last the whole day, secret LAN parties in the two school dorms, my part time job at the fancy french restaurant (they served some of the best fish dishes & dont ask how i know :p)... ahhh... those were the days :]
i m glad that i had fun back then when i could cos here in tokyo its a whole different kinda life. more city life elements.... wine and dine, meet people at different "functions", they tend to be more acquaintance than anything else... altho ever so occationally one would meet a like minded being. then there is the usual expectation and responsibility of being in grad skool, one must be productive and creative at a break neck pace, lets just say a lot is at stake for a foreign grad student here in tokyo.
my session at the rotary club orientation was also quite interesting as i literally saw many versions of "me", there are again 40 new recipients, some more care free, some anxious about their future after school, some very ambitious, still some looked quite uncertain as a scholarship recipeint, while all are there to help the venerable $$$ donors feel that they have contributed to world peace and development. personally i m glad that my name will be on the payroll the next 6 months at rotary... while at the same time enjoying the company of "me" in various stages, reminding myself how much more i have to accomplish in the future as i share a sumptous meal with my fellow scholarship mates.
now why do i feel i have to write this down? i guess perhaps i need to put down in words, as a reminder, the scenes that i saw just now at the dinner session... reminding myself i need to get things done and really start producing, contribute to whatever field i commit myself to. for now its my dissertation & academic papers after that its "B!@@mb@rg here i come"
wish me luck.
cheers,
N
not only was i surprised by the presence of a couple of fellow waseda mates, but on my way home from ikebukuro i ran into an old friend from APU... seems like he is back to japan for his research on youth policy, will stay for 1 yr before returning to oxford.
seeing people fr the yesteryears was in a way a tour down memory lane... for during the whole chika tetsu trip back home, i kept recalling the days we spent together at good ol Beppu. crawling uphill in our 50cc scooters at turtle pace, the delicious ethnic food served at the only cafeteria on our hill top campus, basketball games that last the whole day, secret LAN parties in the two school dorms, my part time job at the fancy french restaurant (they served some of the best fish dishes & dont ask how i know :p)... ahhh... those were the days :]
i m glad that i had fun back then when i could cos here in tokyo its a whole different kinda life. more city life elements.... wine and dine, meet people at different "functions", they tend to be more acquaintance than anything else... altho ever so occationally one would meet a like minded being. then there is the usual expectation and responsibility of being in grad skool, one must be productive and creative at a break neck pace, lets just say a lot is at stake for a foreign grad student here in tokyo.
my session at the rotary club orientation was also quite interesting as i literally saw many versions of "me", there are again 40 new recipients, some more care free, some anxious about their future after school, some very ambitious, still some looked quite uncertain as a scholarship recipeint, while all are there to help the venerable $$$ donors feel that they have contributed to world peace and development. personally i m glad that my name will be on the payroll the next 6 months at rotary... while at the same time enjoying the company of "me" in various stages, reminding myself how much more i have to accomplish in the future as i share a sumptous meal with my fellow scholarship mates.
now why do i feel i have to write this down? i guess perhaps i need to put down in words, as a reminder, the scenes that i saw just now at the dinner session... reminding myself i need to get things done and really start producing, contribute to whatever field i commit myself to. for now its my dissertation & academic papers after that its "B!@@mb@rg here i come"
wish me luck.
cheers,
N
Monday, April 30, 2007
Saturday, April 28, 2007
11 april 2007, my 26th birthday & an unexpected present
finally, spring is here.
what great changes in the weather outlook... feels like my own life has gone through the ice age of uncertainty & now uncertainty melting away under the warm rays of hope, courtesy of Bl@@mberg L.P.
only a few weeks ago i was fretting bout the bleak future, facing an insurmountable pressure of finding a job + graduate + marriage & a fiancee who is much more worried than i am.
well folks, i can safely announce today that the worries are all unnecessary.... at least for now.
lulu and i have both found a job, i was trying to pick between 2 very different but equally prominent firms & decided to join bloomberg. lulu on the other hand will be working for ANA... yes the japanese airline... the one with a better service and a cheaper rate than the other japanese carrier J@L.
both of us were offered a job right before lulu's folks arrive in tokyo last week. so it was all praises and toasts again... however i was most relieved when i broke the news to my folks.... mom unexpectedly broke into tears... exalting the blessings of our ancestors & promising (more) unfailing daily prayers with joysticks. guess i hav been quite the burden to many parties.... my apologies for all the inconvenience caused & thank you for the support.
my offer fr bl@@mberg was actually quite an unexpected event as well. it all started on the 3rd April, when i attended an open event organized by the HR.... i was also made to go through a group discussion which served as the initial interview. things proceeded pretty quick after that & after 4 more interviews i was offered a position with the Glob@l C@stomer S@pport on my 26th birthday.
since all of my own prefered options were met with dead ends, i m naturally delighted to be given such an opportunity. btw my tentative first day of work should be in early november.
well, one down, two more to go. now if i can just get my act together for the master dissertation, & organize my marriage ceremony after my convocation. hmm... wonder what challenges i ll b facing ahead... but no matter what happens, i m more determined to see through this rough ride and arrive at a new chapter in life starting this november.
cheers,
N
what great changes in the weather outlook... feels like my own life has gone through the ice age of uncertainty & now uncertainty melting away under the warm rays of hope, courtesy of Bl@@mberg L.P.
only a few weeks ago i was fretting bout the bleak future, facing an insurmountable pressure of finding a job + graduate + marriage & a fiancee who is much more worried than i am.
well folks, i can safely announce today that the worries are all unnecessary.... at least for now.
lulu and i have both found a job, i was trying to pick between 2 very different but equally prominent firms & decided to join bloomberg. lulu on the other hand will be working for ANA... yes the japanese airline... the one with a better service and a cheaper rate than the other japanese carrier J@L.
both of us were offered a job right before lulu's folks arrive in tokyo last week. so it was all praises and toasts again... however i was most relieved when i broke the news to my folks.... mom unexpectedly broke into tears... exalting the blessings of our ancestors & promising (more) unfailing daily prayers with joysticks. guess i hav been quite the burden to many parties.... my apologies for all the inconvenience caused & thank you for the support.
my offer fr bl@@mberg was actually quite an unexpected event as well. it all started on the 3rd April, when i attended an open event organized by the HR.... i was also made to go through a group discussion which served as the initial interview. things proceeded pretty quick after that & after 4 more interviews i was offered a position with the Glob@l C@stomer S@pport on my 26th birthday.
since all of my own prefered options were met with dead ends, i m naturally delighted to be given such an opportunity. btw my tentative first day of work should be in early november.
well, one down, two more to go. now if i can just get my act together for the master dissertation, & organize my marriage ceremony after my convocation. hmm... wonder what challenges i ll b facing ahead... but no matter what happens, i m more determined to see through this rough ride and arrive at a new chapter in life starting this november.
cheers,
N
Saturday, March 03, 2007
Monday, February 05, 2007
my meeting with giants
last week i met 2 people who left me very impressed.
Edmund Terence Gomez and Phar Kim Beng.
they have showed me what it is to be a man, a human being. its been a long time since i last felt the warm tingle of genuine encouragement.
for a long while, i thought i had lost the ability to feel excited again, too scared to seek any adventures anymore, too busy being framed in my own little world.
that brief meeting had re ignited that passion for the unknown. though my path hence forth would be threaded in much more care, & with a partner in life. i could suddenly see how one suffering from depression would feel. all that responsibility from promises made or self expectations, like the snow of Shiga highland-- a staple beauty in the winter season one moment, and a killer avalanche in the next. i only hope that wont end up in such a situation and pray that those who do may find their way out safely and swiftly.
perhaps fate has made this my opportunity to strive and reach high. never have i felt more pressured in various facets of life... spousal duty, filial obligation, need for self advancement etc etc, all i need to do is pick up the courage, stay focused and act quick.
problem is though courage i now gained, but directions are too many i dont know how to proceed. direct advancement to further postgrad is out of the discussion, though i personally would want to stay close to the academia with the hopes of returning in the short future. yet founding a family at this juncture of life doesnt seem to allow such indulgent options, hence would i go into a field of finance, trade, commerce becoming a sure provider? or find a compromise between them, a post in marketing, research, etc others i do not know... how should i proceed from now on? that is the question.
hmm... much past bedtime now. good nite & sweet dreams.
N
Edmund Terence Gomez and Phar Kim Beng.
they have showed me what it is to be a man, a human being. its been a long time since i last felt the warm tingle of genuine encouragement.
for a long while, i thought i had lost the ability to feel excited again, too scared to seek any adventures anymore, too busy being framed in my own little world.
that brief meeting had re ignited that passion for the unknown. though my path hence forth would be threaded in much more care, & with a partner in life. i could suddenly see how one suffering from depression would feel. all that responsibility from promises made or self expectations, like the snow of Shiga highland-- a staple beauty in the winter season one moment, and a killer avalanche in the next. i only hope that wont end up in such a situation and pray that those who do may find their way out safely and swiftly.
perhaps fate has made this my opportunity to strive and reach high. never have i felt more pressured in various facets of life... spousal duty, filial obligation, need for self advancement etc etc, all i need to do is pick up the courage, stay focused and act quick.
problem is though courage i now gained, but directions are too many i dont know how to proceed. direct advancement to further postgrad is out of the discussion, though i personally would want to stay close to the academia with the hopes of returning in the short future. yet founding a family at this juncture of life doesnt seem to allow such indulgent options, hence would i go into a field of finance, trade, commerce becoming a sure provider? or find a compromise between them, a post in marketing, research, etc others i do not know... how should i proceed from now on? that is the question.
hmm... much past bedtime now. good nite & sweet dreams.
N
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