just had another tiring day fr skool. we r now 2 weeks into the semester, already i hav got more than a handful of work awaiting my attention. but as usual, the show must go on, therefore i must move on too. yet all is good, actually better than i had expected. only just now, i was appointed as one of the two reps. to prepare for the next overseas program. looking forward to another exciting adventure... cant say much now but from where i am now, i m looking westward for a solution. lets hope everything can turn out as i planned.
really glad that i m now in tokyo, able to learn from such a diverse community. its had to say which is a better skool, APU or Waseda, but here in tokyo i do get to participate in projects. & at last i m beginning to find out my true value, or to say i can now attach a price tag on myself. still there is much to do and the going is still tough, one must face the stereotype of being a junior member and learn one's position within the hierarchy. the former i can anticipate; the latter i m still grappling with even to this day.
the first meeting after my election is scheduled on friday late noon, until then i shall need to polish my presentation, my tool to seal the deal :]
till then,
cheers,
Wednesday, April 19, 2006
to my sister
hey,
wuts wrong wif the telephone line at home? cant seem to get through... might want telekom to thoroughly check the connection.
cheers,
wuts wrong wif the telephone line at home? cant seem to get through... might want telekom to thoroughly check the connection.
cheers,
Sunday, April 16, 2006
Tuesday, April 04, 2006
Dr M. receives PhD @ Waseda.
his speech like always was both amusing & thought provoking at the same time :] proud to be a Malaysian... if only we could hav more leaders like him :p
long long day
spent the whole day outside... went to skool, had lunch with friends, went for a walk along the magnificent Kanda river where sakura petals painted the river pink, turned in my next application for financial assistance, & finally went to see my ol'man for new advice for my next project.
all in all, it was a busy day. yet for some reason, there is sth amiss amongst the long list... for i wasnt satisfied by this achievement. every moment i d remind myself that all is still at stake, no room for that *common ground* as its a winner take all game.
yet i fear this intense way of living might not be enough to carry me to my goals. to realize them require much more... much more than i now possess. if only God can hear this loud cry....
all in all, it was a busy day. yet for some reason, there is sth amiss amongst the long list... for i wasnt satisfied by this achievement. every moment i d remind myself that all is still at stake, no room for that *common ground* as its a winner take all game.
yet i fear this intense way of living might not be enough to carry me to my goals. to realize them require much more... much more than i now possess. if only God can hear this loud cry....
sth i forgot to upload... a memorable moment with mayor ma
never thought i b able to see him in person :]
Sunday, April 02, 2006
Saturday, April 01, 2006
the ugly me.
dear all,
as usual, lots happened in the last fews months. since my last message, i helped publised an article on a japanese academic journal, finished my first semester at waseda's GSAPS with pretty good result, went to shanghai & beijing--internship@tv station, help produced an episode of a japanese tv program, visited ancient China @ beijing, met most of the family of my significant other, translated heaps of stuff including medical prodecure docs, had lots of fun & etc etc ;p--, & finally granted a scholarship (still havent got my $$ yet tho.). still lots to be done. as the chinese communist saying goes, "revolution isn't done yet, let's charge ahead my comrades!" such a saying best reflects my current state of mind.
today i also saw an undesirable side of my conscience. it was as if i saw in flesh and blood the shadow of an older self--me, one i thought i had long got ridden yet had unknowingly lingered on, reincarnate and manifests itself in the most unlikely way. but what man can do to rid his stereotype--unhealthy biases? the very nature of our conscience are made up of sets of biases, all working simultaneously to induce the mind into a particular thought. such tendency i have found to be very severe in me, & had not realized such until i saw this clone of an ugly, older version of me. i dare not claim to have finally realized and patched this imperfection, yet at least i see better now the flaw of my design. with sweating palms & a fainting heart, i am ashamed of myself.
none to cheer about,
faulty nic
as usual, lots happened in the last fews months. since my last message, i helped publised an article on a japanese academic journal, finished my first semester at waseda's GSAPS with pretty good result, went to shanghai & beijing--internship@tv station, help produced an episode of a japanese tv program, visited ancient China @ beijing, met most of the family of my significant other, translated heaps of stuff including medical prodecure docs, had lots of fun & etc etc ;p--, & finally granted a scholarship (still havent got my $$ yet tho.). still lots to be done. as the chinese communist saying goes, "revolution isn't done yet, let's charge ahead my comrades!" such a saying best reflects my current state of mind.
today i also saw an undesirable side of my conscience. it was as if i saw in flesh and blood the shadow of an older self--me, one i thought i had long got ridden yet had unknowingly lingered on, reincarnate and manifests itself in the most unlikely way. but what man can do to rid his stereotype--unhealthy biases? the very nature of our conscience are made up of sets of biases, all working simultaneously to induce the mind into a particular thought. such tendency i have found to be very severe in me, & had not realized such until i saw this clone of an ugly, older version of me. i dare not claim to have finally realized and patched this imperfection, yet at least i see better now the flaw of my design. with sweating palms & a fainting heart, i am ashamed of myself.
none to cheer about,
faulty nic
Wednesday, January 25, 2006
one sunny winter afternoon @ Tokyo Tower, Minato ward, Tokyo
after the rotary club interview, i decided to explore the neighbourhood. this place has some mind soothing spots. parks, temples, tokyo tower...
btw, all photos taken wif me trusty little keitai (handphone) ;]
btw, all photos taken wif me trusty little keitai (handphone) ;]
Rotary club interview yesterday
so it was a sunny tuesday morning, just like any other good business day, i attended the long awaited interview for my application of the rotary yoneyama scholarship here in Japan.
having only slept not more than a couple hours, i went to skool first to submit a term paper, hav a few light moments wif classmates & present my suggestion for another international joint research trip to the sensei. at about 11am, me and my well loosened up mind head for the business district the Minato ward.
the interview was scheduled to be held at the japanese Red Cross Assoc. building. the interior was very business like, typically clean muffling carpet, dimly lit lobby, and well crafted wooden armrest lining the winding staircase. arriving more than 2 hrs early, i seated myself in the waiting room, watching many potential scholarship receivers, my competition, led out of the room.
not to say that i wasnt anxious or excited, but i didnt worry about the interview until it became a memory wedged deeply in my head. i felt good at the interview, & did quite well at leading the conversation, or at least thats how i remembered it. one of them on the panel happened to be an Old Boy of my present skool, another whose daughter graduated already, but this did not ease things a bit. in fact, i realized later that i was thrown some pretty agressive punches by em ol'folks.
that being said, i should count my blessings as i think their impression of me is a positive one. now the only glitch bugging me after giving the whole session a run down in my head is this one thing the OB said--"there are lots of students fr ur skool thats on our payroll, so if u happen to find urself not on the list, i hope u understand", before the buzzer sounded signalling the end of our talk. i promptly left with a bow.
all i can do now is pray and keep em digits crossed, the result ll be out in early march. hopefully by then i b too busy indulging myself in the the company of lulu & shanghai, that all foul news could be swallowed down like a gulp of chinese HongKaoLiang spirit minus the fire-spitting throat-vexxing sting.
cheers,
having only slept not more than a couple hours, i went to skool first to submit a term paper, hav a few light moments wif classmates & present my suggestion for another international joint research trip to the sensei. at about 11am, me and my well loosened up mind head for the business district the Minato ward.
the interview was scheduled to be held at the japanese Red Cross Assoc. building. the interior was very business like, typically clean muffling carpet, dimly lit lobby, and well crafted wooden armrest lining the winding staircase. arriving more than 2 hrs early, i seated myself in the waiting room, watching many potential scholarship receivers, my competition, led out of the room.
not to say that i wasnt anxious or excited, but i didnt worry about the interview until it became a memory wedged deeply in my head. i felt good at the interview, & did quite well at leading the conversation, or at least thats how i remembered it. one of them on the panel happened to be an Old Boy of my present skool, another whose daughter graduated already, but this did not ease things a bit. in fact, i realized later that i was thrown some pretty agressive punches by em ol'folks.
that being said, i should count my blessings as i think their impression of me is a positive one. now the only glitch bugging me after giving the whole session a run down in my head is this one thing the OB said--"there are lots of students fr ur skool thats on our payroll, so if u happen to find urself not on the list, i hope u understand", before the buzzer sounded signalling the end of our talk. i promptly left with a bow.
all i can do now is pray and keep em digits crossed, the result ll be out in early march. hopefully by then i b too busy indulging myself in the the company of lulu & shanghai, that all foul news could be swallowed down like a gulp of chinese HongKaoLiang spirit minus the fire-spitting throat-vexxing sting.
cheers,
Friday, January 06, 2006
happy new year~!!
dear all,
been gone for a while now, i mean literally i was not at home for a long time. went to taiwan during early december, met lots of interesting and not to mention powerful ppl there including the current KMT chairman Ma Ying 9. then there were also the DPP reps and the Taiwan Thinktank, asahi newspaper's taipei bureau chief, & i was especially on good terms wif a few of the students at taiwan's soochow university :]
yet as i step back to reality, i was met with a midterm essay, which explains how i spent my christmas eve. & there is 2 more coming. plus other homeworks i missed while i was in taiwan. oh... wut a sweet dream it was just days ago.
apart fr the endless pile of work, the weather is also not helping me coping wif work at all, this winter proves to be the coldest for japan since the last 25 yrs. i m glad its doesnt snow in tokyo, at least not yet. it gets dark early too, these days its light out at 5pm here in tokyo. i m still trying to get used to this short daytime, but i guess i should count my bless as this winter is pretty dry hence tolerable compared to the previous ones.
wonder how everyone is doing these days. wish everyone a happy and prosperous year ahead.
cheers,
nicholas
been gone for a while now, i mean literally i was not at home for a long time. went to taiwan during early december, met lots of interesting and not to mention powerful ppl there including the current KMT chairman Ma Ying 9. then there were also the DPP reps and the Taiwan Thinktank, asahi newspaper's taipei bureau chief, & i was especially on good terms wif a few of the students at taiwan's soochow university :]
yet as i step back to reality, i was met with a midterm essay, which explains how i spent my christmas eve. & there is 2 more coming. plus other homeworks i missed while i was in taiwan. oh... wut a sweet dream it was just days ago.
apart fr the endless pile of work, the weather is also not helping me coping wif work at all, this winter proves to be the coldest for japan since the last 25 yrs. i m glad its doesnt snow in tokyo, at least not yet. it gets dark early too, these days its light out at 5pm here in tokyo. i m still trying to get used to this short daytime, but i guess i should count my bless as this winter is pretty dry hence tolerable compared to the previous ones.
wonder how everyone is doing these days. wish everyone a happy and prosperous year ahead.
cheers,
nicholas
Friday, November 04, 2005
every moment is learning
dear all,
i m now splitting my time between my study, which is picking up pace, TA duties as a professor wanted me to help hime out in a class, my new found part time job at a legal firm.
on top of all that, i ll b leaving for Taiwan for a study trip & i ll b able to meet the Taipei Mayor cum chairman of the KMT party--mr Ma Ying 9. hahaha~~always wanted to write his name like that.
noticed its been 2 weeks since i last logged on... not that its been that busy... but sometimes i m just so tired i dont feel like doing anything that involves the slightest cerebral activity.
still, i thank everyone i ve met in my 24 yrs of life for making me who i am now. most of all to those i was the closest--my family, my girlfriend, all the friends. the biggest thank you & my warmest regards to all of u.
suffice to say, i am quite happy wif life now, & life is good as usual. yet for some reason, i m not satisfied, its like once u ve tasted caviar, there is no turning back. now i long for more chances to see the glittering fancy world. & i shall make tokyo yet another stepping stone, just like beppu was 4 yrs back.
looking forward to wut lies ahead.
cheer,
i m now splitting my time between my study, which is picking up pace, TA duties as a professor wanted me to help hime out in a class, my new found part time job at a legal firm.
on top of all that, i ll b leaving for Taiwan for a study trip & i ll b able to meet the Taipei Mayor cum chairman of the KMT party--mr Ma Ying 9. hahaha~~always wanted to write his name like that.
noticed its been 2 weeks since i last logged on... not that its been that busy... but sometimes i m just so tired i dont feel like doing anything that involves the slightest cerebral activity.
still, i thank everyone i ve met in my 24 yrs of life for making me who i am now. most of all to those i was the closest--my family, my girlfriend, all the friends. the biggest thank you & my warmest regards to all of u.
suffice to say, i am quite happy wif life now, & life is good as usual. yet for some reason, i m not satisfied, its like once u ve tasted caviar, there is no turning back. now i long for more chances to see the glittering fancy world. & i shall make tokyo yet another stepping stone, just like beppu was 4 yrs back.
looking forward to wut lies ahead.
cheer,
Saturday, October 22, 2005
life back to normal
dear all,
now that i ve got used to tokyo & her surrounding, normal life has returned somewhat. yesterday i went to play ball, explored the neighbourhood around skool, met a bunch of new friends. ahh... the goodness of such a feeling. i m beggining to get the flow of things around me, blending into the fabric of society so to say. i actually quite welcome this change... the environment, the people, a new start.
now i m really excited and looking forward to living here in tokyo.
cheers,
now that i ve got used to tokyo & her surrounding, normal life has returned somewhat. yesterday i went to play ball, explored the neighbourhood around skool, met a bunch of new friends. ahh... the goodness of such a feeling. i m beggining to get the flow of things around me, blending into the fabric of society so to say. i actually quite welcome this change... the environment, the people, a new start.
now i m really excited and looking forward to living here in tokyo.
cheers,
Tuesday, October 18, 2005
meeting people
dear all,
i ve been busy lately. mostly with school work. but the last 2 days has been great as i was able to meet lots of people, even 2 famous pop stars fr HK. haha, that was really a bonus.
tokyo is really a place full of opportunity. will utilize this to my advantage :]
how r the rest of u doing out there?
cheers,
nic
i ve been busy lately. mostly with school work. but the last 2 days has been great as i was able to meet lots of people, even 2 famous pop stars fr HK. haha, that was really a bonus.
tokyo is really a place full of opportunity. will utilize this to my advantage :]
how r the rest of u doing out there?
cheers,
nic
Sunday, October 09, 2005
new life at waseda
dear all,
ok. skool just started.
i m now living in tokyo... metropolitan life. not really.
but luv it here cos the skool is good, library is a gem... just hope i hav enough time to go tru wut i hav. lots of really interesting ppl here.
havnt got time to really get to know the city yet. mainly cos i m busy & a little broke.... havnt got any income now that i dont hav a scholarship anymore. but i m working on it, dont suppose i ll survive for long without a scholarship here.
yet its not as gloomy as it seems, i m learning lots everyday. & i know that i ll hav much to improve fr now on. :] havent felt like this for a long time...
like a yatch on full sail...
just had a long chat wif me oldman... think it was my 1st. not that we re not on good terms, just that i ve never disclose this much bout me to him ever. & i think he sees me as a man now... quite the change of wind, think i m heading downwind for an easy sail... just hope he can last till i sail home in a few more years. reminds me of an chinese idiom by OuYang Siu "树欲静而风不止，子欲养而亲不在". worst thing that could happen to a son. may i not see this day...not anytime soon.
my study, contrary to every other thing else, does not seem to be sailing on a smooth course. now that i m here in waseda, i shall hav to change the course of my ship just a few degrees to the East. fr now on, i shall pay more attention to the chinese in Japan. i think this is still a relatively new land, unlike the much exploited study of Chinese in SEA...although i still think there is much to be done on them. tentatively i ve set my eyes on the chinese voluntary associations in Japan and their role to a chinese living in japan.
oh so much to ponder about, worry about. how much time hav i got left? not much for sure. will need to speed things up a bit.
how r u folks doing out there? miss my old pals now that i m really all alone. asaka, hows it going there back home? fei chai, how r u getting along wif weiling? gugu, u need a break fr work. ohh... and the lot of u guys fr APU. dav, co, kunlung... hows skool in london?? finally, my sis MQ when do i get to see his pic?? send it to me quickly larrrr!!!!
take care all.
cheers,
ok. skool just started.
i m now living in tokyo... metropolitan life. not really.
but luv it here cos the skool is good, library is a gem... just hope i hav enough time to go tru wut i hav. lots of really interesting ppl here.
havnt got time to really get to know the city yet. mainly cos i m busy & a little broke.... havnt got any income now that i dont hav a scholarship anymore. but i m working on it, dont suppose i ll survive for long without a scholarship here.
yet its not as gloomy as it seems, i m learning lots everyday. & i know that i ll hav much to improve fr now on. :] havent felt like this for a long time...
like a yatch on full sail...
just had a long chat wif me oldman... think it was my 1st. not that we re not on good terms, just that i ve never disclose this much bout me to him ever. & i think he sees me as a man now... quite the change of wind, think i m heading downwind for an easy sail... just hope he can last till i sail home in a few more years. reminds me of an chinese idiom by OuYang Siu "树欲静而风不止，子欲养而亲不在". worst thing that could happen to a son. may i not see this day...not anytime soon.
my study, contrary to every other thing else, does not seem to be sailing on a smooth course. now that i m here in waseda, i shall hav to change the course of my ship just a few degrees to the East. fr now on, i shall pay more attention to the chinese in Japan. i think this is still a relatively new land, unlike the much exploited study of Chinese in SEA...although i still think there is much to be done on them. tentatively i ve set my eyes on the chinese voluntary associations in Japan and their role to a chinese living in japan.
oh so much to ponder about, worry about. how much time hav i got left? not much for sure. will need to speed things up a bit.
how r u folks doing out there? miss my old pals now that i m really all alone. asaka, hows it going there back home? fei chai, how r u getting along wif weiling? gugu, u need a break fr work. ohh... and the lot of u guys fr APU. dav, co, kunlung... hows skool in london?? finally, my sis MQ when do i get to see his pic?? send it to me quickly larrrr!!!!
take care all.
cheers,
Saturday, September 24, 2005
my 6-day long summer holiday
ahh~~~
feel lighter now. but dont expect to be able to relax too long.
i ve settle down in tokyo.
now officially a citizen of the tokyo metropolitan area. that being said, where i live now is just 10mins away fr disneyland... pretty much @ the outskirt of the tokyo city border.
my room is as usual, small, or teenyweeny, XXS sized, a rabbit cage, pigeon hole, anyway u get the picture. but life here isnt that bad, i get 2 meals everyday except on sundays & holidays courtesy of the obasans here. not exactly the best food in the world but at least i dont have to worry bout wuts cheap today in the market, or where's the best place to shop for grocery.
just had me orientation on the 21st sep 2005. already lots to be done, as i was told. my supervisor wants to start our seminar early, so 26th would b the 1st day of skool for me... a week earlier than the Waseda calendar. oh well... at least i dont hav to rot in my Kancil of a room.
the month of september has been a very very busy but fruitful month.
first, i moved to tokyo 1st. that means no more waiting for weeks for ordered study materials to arrive, public transport after 8pm (including Sundays+holidays, hahaha hooray!!), better prospect of finding a good job, & above all a big change fr the last 4 yrs.
b4 i could settle down, i was at kyoto university 3rd~7th, attending a seminar on overseas chinese & made the biggest fool out of myself. it was quite the scene... sitting there not fully prepared, not to mention being so nervous i couldnt focus properly when commenting on the lectures. hence more comments were thrown at me & i was there helpless being cut alive.note to myself: improve japanese & english proficiency. be well prepared & try not to chat too much with the leng lui associate professor sitting next to me the day b4. additional comment: i must agree wif DA-- jap women speaking kyoto accent are the sexiest being on earth.
the day i got back fr kyoto was lulu's Bday 8th. due to insufficient fund, we spent the day at home, simple meal, a small bouquet of roses, & more lament on being 2#yrs old.
coming back fr kyoto, all dishearted & worth less than cow dung, Aunty & lulu dragged me to the Aichi Expo at Nagoya 12th. there i was able to regain bits of my old self... i was able to roam around the hood wif a partial VIP pass (Aunty's friend's husband's subordinate...aka Connection within) and free to snap about wif my trusty canon. visited the mitsubishi pavilion (skipped the 4hr queue :p), both japanese pavilions, the China pavilion, all with personal guide & the accompaniment of their Directors. it really feels great to b a VIP... think i could like it :] then there was the Malaysia pavilion, African pavilions, Spain & France, a few other asian pavilions as well. all in all, it was a fun day and refreshing one too. a BIG BIG thank you to Aunty :]
right after Nagoya, there was our graduation ceremony 15~16th. we went back a day earlier to get all the paperwork done, made sure we could get our certs rite after the long & crowded event & off we went to Yufuin a famous hotspring town rite next to our humble Beppu. the graduation ceremony was a blurrrrr. one moment we were collecting our gowns, taking photos, next thing i know square hats were thrown & some stuck on the ceiling happens every time haha. minutes after the ceremony, we rushed to airport & by dinner, we were back at lulu's in tokyo. talk about a tight schedule.
although summer holiday started months ago, i felt like it started the moment i was handed my cert of graduation by ol'man Fellizar. *finally it feels like holiday* i remember telling this to Aunty later.
so here it is, a summary of the last moments of my summer holiday. next up, life in Waseda...
cheers,
feel lighter now. but dont expect to be able to relax too long.
i ve settle down in tokyo.
now officially a citizen of the tokyo metropolitan area. that being said, where i live now is just 10mins away fr disneyland... pretty much @ the outskirt of the tokyo city border.
my room is as usual, small, or teenyweeny, XXS sized, a rabbit cage, pigeon hole, anyway u get the picture. but life here isnt that bad, i get 2 meals everyday except on sundays & holidays courtesy of the obasans here. not exactly the best food in the world but at least i dont have to worry bout wuts cheap today in the market, or where's the best place to shop for grocery.
just had me orientation on the 21st sep 2005. already lots to be done, as i was told. my supervisor wants to start our seminar early, so 26th would b the 1st day of skool for me... a week earlier than the Waseda calendar. oh well... at least i dont hav to rot in my Kancil of a room.
the month of september has been a very very busy but fruitful month.
first, i moved to tokyo 1st. that means no more waiting for weeks for ordered study materials to arrive, public transport after 8pm (including Sundays+holidays, hahaha hooray!!), better prospect of finding a good job, & above all a big change fr the last 4 yrs.
b4 i could settle down, i was at kyoto university 3rd~7th, attending a seminar on overseas chinese & made the biggest fool out of myself. it was quite the scene... sitting there not fully prepared, not to mention being so nervous i couldnt focus properly when commenting on the lectures. hence more comments were thrown at me & i was there helpless being cut alive.note to myself: improve japanese & english proficiency. be well prepared & try not to chat too much with the leng lui associate professor sitting next to me the day b4. additional comment: i must agree wif DA-- jap women speaking kyoto accent are the sexiest being on earth.
the day i got back fr kyoto was lulu's Bday 8th. due to insufficient fund, we spent the day at home, simple meal, a small bouquet of roses, & more lament on being 2#yrs old.
coming back fr kyoto, all dishearted & worth less than cow dung, Aunty & lulu dragged me to the Aichi Expo at Nagoya 12th. there i was able to regain bits of my old self... i was able to roam around the hood wif a partial VIP pass (Aunty's friend's husband's subordinate...aka Connection within) and free to snap about wif my trusty canon. visited the mitsubishi pavilion (skipped the 4hr queue :p), both japanese pavilions, the China pavilion, all with personal guide & the accompaniment of their Directors. it really feels great to b a VIP... think i could like it :] then there was the Malaysia pavilion, African pavilions, Spain & France, a few other asian pavilions as well. all in all, it was a fun day and refreshing one too. a BIG BIG thank you to Aunty :]
right after Nagoya, there was our graduation ceremony 15~16th. we went back a day earlier to get all the paperwork done, made sure we could get our certs rite after the long & crowded event & off we went to Yufuin a famous hotspring town rite next to our humble Beppu. the graduation ceremony was a blurrrrr. one moment we were collecting our gowns, taking photos, next thing i know square hats were thrown & some stuck on the ceiling happens every time haha. minutes after the ceremony, we rushed to airport & by dinner, we were back at lulu's in tokyo. talk about a tight schedule.
although summer holiday started months ago, i felt like it started the moment i was handed my cert of graduation by ol'man Fellizar. *finally it feels like holiday* i remember telling this to Aunty later.
so here it is, a summary of the last moments of my summer holiday. next up, life in Waseda...
cheers,
Monday, August 15, 2005
raped... a fool's lament
my frantic heart pounding,
the desperate need to convey to the face,
the burning throat, the aching throat, the
swelled throat didnt help the matter.
watered to the brimmed, i turned them
to look at the face as speech failed me.
alas he understood
with my notion he brought writing tools.
*couldnt speak, no sound* coarsely
written in their language,
to which he replied
*i understand, but this is work
& we must all adhere to the work ethic*
little did he know that
the wages for the last few days
would be delivered to the hospital,
pharmacy that provided my treatment.
was the work ethic worth more than the employees?
coming to that, where do i stand as a part timer?
but that was soon answered
as he again spoke, *take tomorrow off,
i shall call u tomorrow for the shift the day after*
& that plastic japanese grin i m all so familiar with.
with that i sped off to retrieve my ride home.
all the way, feeling used & raped
off my last thread of pride as i replayed that scene,
so desperate to appeal my case but couldnt,
so crystal clear of my practical worth,
& a growing detest for this establishment
with all the being in it.
but all this is bygone
i hope.
&
i shall not return.
so farewell Beppu Wan Royal Hotel,
goodbye. &
may we never have to cross paths ever again.
the desperate need to convey to the face,
the burning throat, the aching throat, the
swelled throat didnt help the matter.
watered to the brimmed, i turned them
to look at the face as speech failed me.
alas he understood
with my notion he brought writing tools.
*couldnt speak, no sound* coarsely
written in their language,
to which he replied
*i understand, but this is work
& we must all adhere to the work ethic*
little did he know that
the wages for the last few days
would be delivered to the hospital,
pharmacy that provided my treatment.
was the work ethic worth more than the employees?
coming to that, where do i stand as a part timer?
but that was soon answered
as he again spoke, *take tomorrow off,
i shall call u tomorrow for the shift the day after*
& that plastic japanese grin i m all so familiar with.
with that i sped off to retrieve my ride home.
all the way, feeling used & raped
off my last thread of pride as i replayed that scene,
so desperate to appeal my case but couldnt,
so crystal clear of my practical worth,
& a growing detest for this establishment
with all the being in it.
but all this is bygone
i hope.
&
i shall not return.
so farewell Beppu Wan Royal Hotel,
goodbye. &
may we never have to cross paths ever again.
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